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06:20pm 10/05/2008
 
 
Oneiromancer666
In my adolescence I formed the belief that awareness was always the first step in personal growth; that without awareness no progress could be made. This core belief of mine has strongly shaped my interactions with people, especially when they needed guidance. People have thanked me for encouraging their awareness, but some of these same people have also suffered repeatedly from moments when I misguidedly pushed too hard towards awareness. I have come to realize that awareness is not required as a first step for all people; that in fact some people can intuitively move towards a state of higher quality without being aware intellectually. Just because my intellect is more honed than my intuition and so has been a more expedient tool for my own personal evolution does not mean that everyone is in the same state as me. By believing that awareness was always the first step for everyone I was really just misguidedly projecting myself onto others. I wrote the belief that awareness was always the first step for everyone on a piece of paper, and burned it in the Beltane fire, as a symbolic gesture reinforcing that I was removing that belief from within myself.
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 grr_islatyx
 
10:27pm 10/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Indeed. I'm aware intellectually but I feel that my intuition is stronger.
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 oneiromancer666
 
01:29am 11/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
Humanity as a collective is lacking intuition, and people that have both intellect and intuition are rare, so you are certainly needed in this world.
 
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 grr_islatyx
 
01:35am 11/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Well, thanks. I find your intellect refreshing when you actually post! :O
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 lupustheurge
 
04:39am 11/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
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i second that!!(when you actually post)
I am also aware on an intellectual level, but my intuition is far stronger.
 
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 grr_islatyx
 
05:03am 11/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
As is befitting a theurge.
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 oneiromancer666
 
01:39am 13/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
You have graced the comments of my journal with some of your spontaneous poetry, so I have seen your awareness.
 
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 lupustheurge
 
07:24am 13/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
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:)
 
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 rbradakis
 
02:10pm 11/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Randy B.
I've had similar experiences, and came to a similar resolution.

The basic issue for me is that most people just don't follow my mental processes. And as we've heard before "All paths lead to enlightenment.", so I try to keep that in mind when trying to lead people to the same conclusion I've come to, or encouraging thoughtfulness on their part.
 
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 oneiromancer666
 
01:34am 13/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
I encouraged people to chart their own paths, but the presumption by which I was operating and that I had unintentionally hidden from myself was that those paths always had to begin with awareness; I believed that there was no path of personal growth at all without awareness first. It was such an axiomatic belief for me that I never thought to question it, but unlike other axiomatic beliefs that I had held and questioned though, this one had not been indoctrinated into me in my childhood; I had formed it from my own personal observations. It's not very often that one discards core beliefs, and I can honestly say that I relish the experience of excising a core belief. I don't think that anything will match the day that a young Catholic boy I used to be discarded his belief in God, and felt empowered by the act. (I have since transitioned from that atheism to something that I call quasitheism.)
 
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 rbradakis
 
07:51pm 14/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Randy B.
I lost my belief in my own rightness-of-being early on, fortunately for those around me.

Quasitheism? I like the way that sounds. Do tell!
 
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 oneiromancer666
 
10:54pm 14/05/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
Defining quasitheism... That deserves an entry of its own...
 
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 slave_leilia
 
03:08pm 07/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
leilia
I saw this in your interests and was curious as well...
 
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 oneiromancer666
 
01:20am 08/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
I did post an entry to define quasitheism.
 
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 slave_leilia
 
01:19am 03/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
leilia
Hi! *waves*

Friending you. :)
 
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 oneiromancer666
 
11:22pm 05/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
It is easy to imagine the real smile on your face represented by your smiley. I added you to my Friends List as well.

I also added Pesh.
 
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 slave_leilia
 
03:05pm 07/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
leilia
Your user icon is just too damn sexy...

When I was young, I never understood my reaction to Darkness from the movie, Legend.

It is quite clear to me now.
 
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 oneiromancer666
 
01:09am 08/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
My incubus icon is a painting called Touches by one of my favorite artists, Boris Vallejo. The incubus of "Western" culture used to be my favorite mythological creature, but I think I have graduated to the Japanese version of an incubus, a shokushuma. Shokushuma are basically incubi, but with multiple penisoid tentacles. If I had at least 7 penisoid tentacles, I could use 4 of them as bondage restraints, and 3 to penetrate all three of a girl's fuckable holes at once.

At first I was surprised that an image search for erotic pictures of a coupling between Darkness and Lily produced nothing, but then I realized that the movie pre-dated the web. If that movie had come out today, the web would be rife with such images.
 
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 untiltwilight67
 
03:46am 06/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
I have been an intuitive all my life. I can quickly sum up a person or a situation and know where to go from there. I admire your insight and willingness to accept that not everyone operates from "step 1" so to speak. I work in psychiatry and let me tell you, you have to know how to get in through the back door often to reach some people who are suffering. Emotions can be so fragile that if you push too hard they will spiral down (not that you pushed). I love to find out what makes people tick lol!
 
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 oneiromancer666
 
05:28am 06/10/2008 (UTC)
 
 
Oneiromancer666
"...to know how to get in through the back door"

That is very valuable knowledge.

"...if you push too hard they will spiral down (not that you pushed)."

I have pushed too hard, trying to ram through the front door of intellect. I have caused downward spirals. I try to keep my newfound understanding regarding intuitive people and progress in mind when interacting with people who are primarily intuitive.
 
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